siri, why does god allow suffering?

There are a great number of things that annoy me about my TA assignment this semester, but I think they can all be summarized by saying that this professor acts like a total hardass about her expectations for me but does not hold herself to the same standards at all.

For example, I am supposed to reply to her emails in 24 hours or less whether they warrant a response or not, but I can wait up to four days for responses from her on very specific, urgent questions (and those responses are usually ones that force me to do something time-consuming at the very last minute, all of which could be avoided if she would just respond to my emails in the same time-frame she expects of me.) And, though she very forcefully informed me during our first meeting that she has “almost no tolerance for mistakes from TAs,” I spend at least five hours a week manually re-grading online quizzes because she has fucked up writing questions/answers and doesn’t double-check her own work. 

Like, I get that there is a power differential in our working relationship and that some people are more hierarchy-concerned than others in their management/teaching style. Whatever! That’s fine; whatever gets you through the day. But this just seems like a power play designed to make her feel important at the expense of my time, my formerly balanced routine, and my once-stable stress level.

Sep 16

"You know what your month really needs? An ear infection."

- my body, apparently.

Sep 15
Someone invited herself along on our car ride to the grocery store, thus turning it into a ride to the p-a-r-k.
Sep 14

Someone invited herself along on our car ride to the grocery store, thus turning it into a ride to the p-a-r-k.

One cool but shallow thing about getting older is that I feel like my style gets more cohesive/flattering/self-contained each year. Like, I used to be a very flexible shopper, but now my attitude can best be summarized as: fuck trying to make color, pattern, and shapeless Anthropologie knitwear work for me; I’m going to dress like a Kennedy who secretly aspires to join an all-girl punk band, and I don’t fucking care if you like it.

Sep 14

It is so strange that we live in a world in which Allison Janney and Aubrey Plaza have never played mother-and-daughter roles in a dark comedy.

Sep 13

"I want to do a rom-com with Melissa McCarthy. I even told her that at an awards show, and she said ‘Yes, Let’s do it!’"

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Idris Elba, on his dream role, to US Weekly (via camewiththeframe)

omg i’m actually shaking with excitement just at the idea

(via curliestofcrowns)

(via curliestofcrowns)

Sep 11

Got propositioned to be part of a threesome this afternoon, so, yes, I would say that this is the most grateful I have ever been to reach the end of a work week.

Sep 11

One of the only reasons I would consider staying in this PhD program is to get to take the class all women’s studies professors take in which you learn to wrestle deep, dark secrets out of somebody using nothing but awkward silence.

Sep 11

Between the ages of 12 and 22, I probably averaged one good self-pitying stress cry per year. (And, it should be noted that, between the ages of 16 and 22, there was almost always alcohol involved in said crying.)

Don’t get me wrong: I teared up a lot about things like the sappy backstories of reality show competitors and CJ Cregg during that timespan. But I was not big on crying about my own life, to the point where people were concerned that I was maybe a tiny bit dead inside because I didn’t cry about my parents’ divorce, or being stalked, or living alone in another country, or whatever else was going on that would draw an open reaction out of a person with access to the full spectrum of human emotions. 

Anyway, then my stone-cold self went to grad school, and after this year, I would say my new lifetime average is about one cry every four months, largely because this morning I stress-cried for the tenth time in six weeks*. Which is a trend I would very much like to put a stop to, despite the fact that all signs point to it continuing unabated through the next eight months.

Sep 10
fuck this style-cramping shit.

I don’t know about you, but if I were going to ask my assistant to make 4 copies of 25 different articles in a week when all the office copiers are out of commission, I would do it with more than a 2 hour window.

Sep 10